Merry Christmas

Christmas Eve was wonderful with a delicious meal and a lot of presents. The day started out with three hazelnuts for Cinderella, I watch it every year, and it is what gives me Christmas spirit. 


We had porridge, reindeer steak, flan, fruit and nuts, and at last we had cake and Christmas cookies. I was so full I had to lay down. I am so thankful for being so privileged, it is important to remind yourself to be thankful. 

I also got some great presents; from my sister and her husband, grandma and grandpa and my auntie and uncle, I got beer glasses and champagne glasses from Ritzenhoff. 

Beer glasses

Now I have ten beer glasses and five champagne glasses. Also I got some make-up, gift cards and money. I do not really care that much about the presents though. The most fun part is giving away great presents, but this year I did not do that as good either. I am more fond of personal gifts with meaning, instead of just something materialistic. 

You can count on me now

My dear. I am afraid I have been too tough on my friend, and I have not been there when she needed me. I understand now that it may not be only me who has been hurting the last couple of months. We slipped away from each other, but now I see that it has gone too far. I miss my friend, and maybe she misses me too?

She has changed since we stopped hanging out. She cries now, everything insignificant makes her cry. One year ago, she was the toughest person I knew, she seemed invincible. She hated clichés, pop music and cheesy love songs. Now she is the complete opposite.

She has many other good friends, and I can see she really loves them. I have decided to do my best to be a better friend, however. I do not know if she opens up to the others, which may be the reason she is more vulnerable now. But maybe if I am a better friend to her, she will open up to me, and she will feel better? I really miss the way we used to be. Although she may took our friendship for granted, and figured we would never drift apart, she was right to think that I would come running back. I mean, someone has to try, because as much as I had hoped, she has not tried too much. Anyway, I have always been the soft one in our friendship. At least I thought so.

Breathe now

The incident I was talking about in the last post, made me think that I might had ruined a friendship. Fortunately, everything seems to be fine. I am so relieved, and I might have exaggerated a bit. Everything seemed to solve itself, for now. I hope everything will remain fine between us. I would hate to loose such a great friend.

:)

Coconuts

It has been a while since I have written, but now I feel like I have something to write. This weekend was awful. 

Some things happened which I am not at all proud of, and that I cannot talk to many people about. I just crossed a line, both mine and my friends'. When I realised what I had done, there was no way I could stop thinking about it. That was all that went through my mind for two days. I could not think about anything else, I could not eat and I could not concentrate at school. It was horrible, and it all made me want to cry so badly. However, not a single tear was shed. I felt so crushed and nervous and disappointed, but the tears stayed back. Even now I feel like shedding a tear, but I cannot! 


"There is an ancient tribal proverb I once heard in India. It says that before we can see properly, we must first shed our tears to clear the way."
                                                                                                                - Libba Bray
Anything personal will not make me cry, because I have turned into a coconut or something. Hard as a rock on the outside, but as soon as you crack me, the tears will start pouring. I am just wondering what will be so heartbreaking that it will make me cry, because so far it has only been used sticks in attempt to crack me. 


On the other hand, I now only cry happy tears. Very often I feel like I experience so overwhelming and wonderful things that makes me want to cry, and sometimes I do. This is very new to me, I never used to cry happy tears before.


"Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning to do afterwards."
                                                                                                                        - Kurt Vonnegut
Although it might sound good, I am not sure it is. I know I lock up what bothers me, and keep it in, and there is no way for it to let out. The happy tears are just side effects of that. Confused feelings escaping.  

Tunnels

Yesterday I told a rather depressed friend of mine to start setting goals in life, and really make an effort to achieve them. And I started wondering which goals I should put for myself? Of course finishing school is one of them, but what else? I guess studying abroad has always been a goal of mine. Other than that, I would like to do something meaningful, for example getting a sponsor child, but I think I have to turn eighteen first. 


The next destination is France which I am going to with my French class, in March. And next summer, my friends and I are going to Croatia or maybe Portugal. That will be quite interesting because we are a quite large group of friends going together, which might lead to some drama. 

Also I have to learn how to surf

Home alone!

Being home alone gets quite boring after a while. I have been home alone for a week now, and I think it is too lonely and quiet. I have had friends over, but in the evening, I feel very lonely. I would like some company! It makes me think of when I will get an apartment, no way that I am getting one by myself, I am definitely having a room-mate. Just think about having to make a decent dinner every day for one person, that would be such a waste. I would end up with noodles and pizza! 

Please, let's chill

Cake!

My favourite cakes are carrot cake, oreo cake and the brownies at Godt Brød's bakery with triple chocolate and walnuts. Just sayin.

Raw

 " 'Cause I don't belong to anyone, and nobody belongs to me "
                                                                                           - Perfectly lonely by John Mayer

I do not know what I can do to change that, because I would like it to change. I would like to love someone, and to be loved back. I feel like I am just only me. Always. I feel like I am alone, I have good friends, but I do not have a best friend who thinks of me as the best friend as well. That is gone now. I miss feeling special and like the only one you desire to be with. emostupidshitass. 

Ego

Som ringane i vatnet blir du større
Som en tumor i ditt hjerta blir du verre
Store spørsmål som kem har du vært, kem ska du bli
Eg gir deg ingenting aent enn mi tid
Ka skal du sei når du står framfor vårherre?
Nå er det din tur dessverre

- Tumor i ditt hjerta by Kaizers Orchestra

See the world

My London visit was a total success, the weather was good, my friends were nice and the things to do were countless. I think we got to do almost all the stuff we planned, but there were so much more to do!

The Kooks concert was the highlight of the trip, they exceeded our expectations. I was standing on the front row by the fence, making eye-contact with Luke, I know he sang to me all the time. The sad part is that it is all over now, so quickly. We have been so excited for this event for such a long time, and suddenly it is over. Just like that. I think I have to make new plans to keep me motivated. Or else the days will be too boring. 

London tomorrow

Tomorrow. London. Five days. Concert. Or well the last one I am not so sure about any more. Sadly we were told the vocalist in The Kooks is sick, which means the gig might be cancelled. Not the luckiest kid in the world, no. Anyhow, the trip will be great, gig or not. We are free.

The second chance is the last chance

Before it's gone

Taj Mahal, India

I have got a new life mission, I have to visit the Taj Mahal within two-five years, because I read that it will collapse! I cannot live without seeing the Taj Mahal before it crashes. Also I have to go to California within maybe seven years, because I heard it will be crushed by an earthquake or something. The Maldives are also on my list, beautiful and peaceful. 

Surfing in California

The Maldives

Relief

I noticed the moon was in the sky today, almost a full moon. It makes me feel calm when it is there, I do not know why the moon makes such an impression on me, I love it.

STFU

It sucks and it is awkward, people are actually reading this shit, which limits the honesty in my posts. I would love to write about what ever was on my mind, like I used to, but now I feel like I cannot utter my inner-closest feelings. However, in a way I still do, I guess the last post was a bit over. Well, appreciate the honesty you get. 

I love going entirely, completely, absolutely commando

Few things feel as good as sleeping naked. The pure, natural comfort, and the sheets will warm up faster. The only thing that is concerning is if something would happen, which would lead to a frantic hurry toward the dresser. The same goes for walking naked around the house, but it just gives you a certain pleasure. You learn to be comfortable with your body, which is important. 

                                          "The naked truth is
                                        always better than the
                                           best-dressed lie."

Why do I even care?

                                         "People want you to be happy.

                                      Don't keep serving them your pain!

                                         If you could untie your wings

                                        and free your soul of jealousy,

                                         you and everyone around you

                                            would fly up like doves."

                                                                                       -Rumi

Why was I full of expectations, and why did I get disappointed? It should not have meant anything to me, I do not know why it does. If I was a friend of mine, I would just say forget about it and do not think about it. I just cannot control it, I do think about it. And what difference would it make if he did want me?

Get over it.

Snow on the roof

Is it wrong to be kissing random people at parties? Say it is just kissing or making out, and it does not go any further, is it a bad idea? I think to me it does not really matter because I am young, and I do not want to set any strict limits to myself. I know when it is going too far, but making out? I ask this because I have friends and, well other people that think it is wrong, so is it really? I guess I have already given my opinion, but is it slutty to make out with different people at different parties, or is it just the youth having fun? All I think I have left to say is that if you want to do it and think it is fun, then do it. Snow on the roof.



I mean, what are the advantages of being single, well you can do the stuff you cannot do when you are in a relationship. That is why many people enjoy being single. 


I guess I will just do what suits me, and live my life. The others can live their careful, boring lives.

And by the way, this blog sucks

I want someone I think is special to make me feel special

Why is it that it always has to be the wrong guys that like me? Why is it that I cannot like them back, and have to turn them down. Suddenly everything is awkward and different. Fucked up. I hope next time the feelings will be mutual, preferably both will find each other special.

I don't think you've ever needed anything

So I was told today that I do not need anything in that meaning that I do not need anyone. Is this the impression people have of me? That I think I am better off alone? This came from a friend who used to like me. When we hung out and I was struggling with something, I always told him I could do it. I did not need his help, but that is what people want to do for each other right? Help. I guess I make the impression that I think I can do everything myself, but the truth is that everybody need some help sometimes. And certainly everybody needs somebody. 

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see

Painted faces fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody

You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you and all you know and how you speak

Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody

You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you

                                                                             -Use somebody by Kings of Leon

I was also told that girls tend to over think stuff. 

It's not what you did wrong that matters, it's what you do to make up for it

Is it really that simple?  

Away or gone?

It is the end of summer which means back to school. This year something is different, people are leaving to study somewhere else. This makes me realize that I am actually growing up and the time for studying and moving away is approaching quickly. I was supposed to leave as well. It is strange, I keep wondering if I will ever see them again or is this it? I did not even get to say goodbye to some of them.

I love you

It is so difficult to tell somebody that you love them, or that you really care. Honesty can be so hard to utter. I hardly ever tell my parents that I love them, and when I do I feel like a weirdo because they are not used to such honesty. 


However, some people abuse the word love. 

"Those three words, are said too much, but not enough" 

I love you grandpa, feel better soon. 

Can it get any worse?

This month was supposed to be fun and unforgettable, and it really turned out to be unforgettable, in the worst way ever. It all happened during my two weeks in the states. The first bad news was that my grandpa is very ill, and he is in a hospital in Thailand. He is too sick to come home, and therefore he and my grandma had to stay longer. This really affected my dad and I could see that he was very upset. Three of his siblings went to Thailand to see grandpa, and I can see that my dad really wanted to go too. In the middle of that, my dad also got the news that his beloved boat was stolen. Later he heard that my brother found it, but unfortunately it was a little wrecked.


A day before we were going home, we got the worst news. There had been a bomb in Oslo city which exploded and killed seven people. This was so shocking because that kind of thing just do not happen in Norway. Later that day we heard about something else that had happened back home, and it was terrifying. A man dressed as a cop had entered an island full of AUF youths on summer camp. They were from the age of 11 to 25. The fake cop killed 76 youths. Many of them were hiding, escaping and begging for their lives, but he fired away. The stories about this massacre have been on the screens without any end to it. It is so touching and horrible to read the stories of the victims, how they experienced it. It tears me up inside.




Like a cherry on top of everything, we lost all our three flights home because we read the wrong time of departure from Miami. We had to order new tickets which came on 40 000 altogether for three people.

A long time ago, there was this boy...

When I was a little kid I had so many crushes and "boyfriends" even though we did not really spend time together, therefore they do not really count. 


When I was in the 7th grade, I had my first real relationship. It lasted  for about a month, not because we stopped liking each other, but his father denied us to keep seeing each other. Two years went by and my heart still belonged to him, and with some help from my friend, we got back in touch.  We stayed together for seven months, but being the person who loves the other more, is not simple. I was so in love, but I did not feel the same affection back, so I crawled back into my shell... The day we broke up hurt so much, and I still remember it all. 

A year after I met another guy, who I did not know for long at all. He was really ongoing and eventually I gave in, stopped resisting, and let him kiss me. During the two weeks I knew him, feelings grew unnaturally fast and I really liked him a lot. Suddenly one day he told me he loved me, and I replied that it was not true. He fell silent and later on that night he sent me a message on facebook, telling me that we had to stop seeing each other. The day after he told me he loved his ex and that he had only been using me to make her jealous. It hurt so incredibly bad, and it still does. I just felt so used and hurt because I had given so much of myself and my feelings. 


Six months went by before I had the gut to try again. I gave a friend of me, who had had a crush on me for a while, a chance. At New Years Eve I kissed him and it felt good, but the next days were awkward as hell. He told me he was afraid to say or do anything stupid, which made it all very difficult. About a month later he told me he still had feelings for me, but it did not change anything because he was drunk and he still was not tough enough to sweep me off my feet. 

A couple months later I met someone again, but that too ended as fast as it started. He was too pushy and clingy, and not really my type. I do not really know why we were together, I never really liked him, but I just wanted to give it a chance. The thought of never giving anything a try went out of hand and I think I did a small mistake there. ;-)


This is the story of my tragic love life so far....

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

Siesta time!

Just woke up from my siesta, which I wish was an inevitable part of the day.I like to think of myself as a night person, so a midday siesta is just exceptionally. After a power nap like today, I have a whole new battery of energy for the rest of the day!

"With great power...comes great need to take a nap. Wake me up later." 

                                                             — Rick Riordan

Letting go

It has been a while. Things have happened, but I have not taken the time to write about it. I am back in my shell, and I have stopped missing my best friend. Which obviously means that something is not as it should. However, I have so many other friends to rely on. Even though I do not think this is the end of our friendship, I definitely do not think it will be the same again. I feel like I am moving forward, but I am not sure, I may just be fooling myself. 

I have friends to rely on whom I love

Well, finally it is summer vacation. I am not really noticing the hot weather yet, but the sloppy, empty days have already started. I will be working a lot though, but only for 2-3 weeks and I will be off to Florida!

Tourists in town!

Summer is approaching, and the cruise ships are coming in. It is really exciting because I get to speak English, especially at work.





Today a friend of mine and I went to town to hang with the tourists, in hope to talk to someone. We actually joined this small group on a short tour, trying to blend in. Unfortunately the cruise ship left early. In replacement, we pretended to be tourists and started talking English to each other. It was fun!

 "Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in theirs."

Indifference

I just want to leave this place, go somewhere new and get an opportunity to do something different. I have always wanted to take my second year in the states, but unfortunately that opportunity is gone now. Honestly I do not think there has been any time I have wished more to go than now. Things are starting to fall apart, and even though it is giving up, I just want to forget about it. I just want to give up when I see that I am the only one fighting, when I am the only one who spends time and powers trying to fix it. I question myself if it is worth it, is it worth fighting for someone if the other person do not give a damn?


While losing my friend, I lose myself because it makes me so sad. For a while now I have felt this sadness and it changes me. I may seem happy and I may be laughing, but still the ache is there underneath it all. It is strange to look back a year and see the difference. My smile used to be so sincere.


At school life is easier though, because it takes my mind off of things. The nights are tougher. At night I have time to think and it just hurt so bad to think about it. It takes real effort to hold back my tears, and sometimes they are just too wild to be tamed.


Where were you when I needed you?

17th of May !

Today is Norway's national day, and I have been out celebrating the whole day. Some people walk in the streets while singing or playing in school bands, others stand on the line watching and cheering. I walked in "barnetoget" with my school. Afterwards my brother, my niece and I watched "russetoget". Russ is the celebration of graduation, which lasts about a month and 17th of May is the very last day as russ.

Then I went to my grandmother and grandfather and ate a whole lot before I went to town again and watched "folketoget". After that we went out at a Chinese restaurant, I ate fried banana with ice cream, before we went to my friend's house and just chilled for a while before we went home. It was a quite long day. 


I love this day more and more for every year that passes by. I love this country, my town, more and more in a way I never thought I would feel for this place. I am becoming a real patriot although I still love to travel and want to move abroad soon, but I know I will always end up here. 

Hey I'm Pluto

I have been told that I am not the person people really notice. For an instance, at gatherings where I meet new people, I am never the one people remember afterwards. I am just there. Well there is no point in complaining, it will not change anything, this is just the way I am. Not really shy or anything, just quiet. Still, it kind of sucks. 

Don't sail away without me

My self-esteem is decreasing and I am afraid I am about to crawl back into my shell. I take distance from everyone and I barely talk to people at the time. Sometimes I am overwhelmed with sadness, but then it goes away for a while and then I do not think about anything of significance. I feel so boring and lifeless, I wonder where my mind and soul went... 

I don't care!

Something else that, I do not know, bothers me or delights me is that I do not think too much about my problems. I know they are there, but I do not bother to try to figure them out (except from when I am writing them down here). They can solve themselves with the time. That is more chill. 

Heads&Hearts

Okay. I am contradicting myself a bit. I cannot do whatever I want to, because I care too much about other peoples' feelings, to just think of myself and what I want. Sure, I do not care about my feelings to get hurt, but I really do not want to be the person who hurts someone else. 


Also I have figured out something new about myself. I think it is almost impossible for me to like someone or develop feelings for someone if I know they already have feelings for me. What I mean is that if I do not know whether I like them or not, it will not go any further because I am too scared I will change my mind and hurt the other person. I feel trapped, but I guess I just have to take my chances and go for it if I want to. 













I cannot follow my heads' choice, if my heart thinks it is wrong. 

"If you are unsure of a course of action, do not attempt it. Your doubts and hesitations will infect your execution. Timidity is dangerous: Better to enter with boldness. Any mistakes you commit through audacity are easily corrected with more audacity. Everyone admires the bold; no one honors the timid."

                                                                                                                                                              - Robert Greene 
Ahhh what to do...

Let's have some fun

I learned today that the perfect boy is just like every other not-so-perfect boy. I have this picture in my head of someone who will love me, respect me in every way and will not be unfaithful. I understand these are quite high demands. Even the ones I really trusted and thought so highly about turned out to be not so perfect after all. I do not blame them though, it just reminds me that I do not have to be too careful with what I do. I do not give a damn about my heart to be broken anymore, it will be broken several times anyway, because with love and happiness follow heartbreaks and sorrow. I just have to deal with it as it comes. So let us have some fun!

Let your fortress fall

"And you're slowly shaking finger tips

Show that you're scared like me so

Let's pretend we're alone

And I know you may be scared

And I know we're unprepared

But I don't care

Tell me, tell me

What makes you think that you are invincible?

I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure

Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable

Impossible"

-    Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade

Some people have the need to seem tougher or stronger than what they really are, and it must be so difficult and tiring. We are only human, and some times we just have to let people in and some feelings out. No one expects anyone to have everything under control all the time. It is only human to show your feelings now and then, and let someone who is close to you tear down the brick wall. 

This is an inspiring poem, but it says that nothing can take you down and under no circumstances, nothing will make you cry or feel for that sake. I think it is a bit heartless.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

by William Ernest Henley

Creativity is the keyword

Unfortunately I am back in a quite dull period again. After I got home from Barcelona, life has continued in the most boring way. I do not seem to appreciate events and nice moments. My life is just very normal and there is not much happening, even though I am not sure of what I am hoping to happen.

Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You're going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process.

                                                                                           - Anthony Robbins

Maybe I just want to meet new people and make new friends. At the time, partying is the highlight in my life, probably because that is the only fun thing I have access to at the moment opposed to travelling. Maybe I just miss the summer. Sunny days at the beach with all my friends, chill and fun.

I guess the solution for me is to be more creative and active. Come up with things to do, get-togethers and trips.

 "Creativity is intelligence having fun." 
                                                                                                  - Albert Einstein

Barca Baby!!

Okay, so tomorrow I am going to Barcelona with my bestest friend and I honestly cannot wait! I have never been to Spain before, and I am so excited to hear everybody speaking Spanish all the time. I had hoped I would be able to communicate a little in Spanish by now, but unfortunately I have no clue of what to say. 

There are so many bright sides to this trip. First of all I cannot wait to spend a whole week alone with my friend. I know it might sound weird, but even though I see her several times a week, I do not feel like it is enough. When we became friends we hung out all the time, every day, all day long. Now we do not hang out as much as before, but we are just as good friends. However, I sort of miss that time when I saw her every day, and this week it will be only me and her. Hahah, it sounds like I am in love with her or something, but I am not, she is just my closest friend. 

Second is that there is no one else in the world that I would rather 

explore the world with, and now we are going to this exciting country. 

Our goal, I think, is to explore many new places and things, and really 

get the feeling of the Spanish culture. We are expecting to taste a lot 

of new food, meet new people and really just live our lives. 

Third is that we are going alone, without any parents, which is kind 

of frightening, but we will stay at her uncle's place. He and his friend 

sound really cool, and I think they will take care of us. Still it is quite 

exciting that we are old enough to finally go travelling alone.

Forth is all the shops we will visit, and all the shopping. We have specifically planned to visit Starbucks, Hard Rock Café, Nagano sushi, somewhere to eat paella, kebab, the Picasso museum, the Gaudi park, Sagrada familia church and a lot more. Also we will shop till we drop, or until we do not have any money left. I will 

bring 500 euros and I hope I can afford a lot with it. 

COFFEE

Today I had a coffee course at work, and it was both interesting and frightening. There are just so many different details to remember, and I was told that if I forgot a small detail, it would ruin the whole coffee. Therefore I was quite stressed when it was my turn to try it out, but luckily it was not a disaster. From now on I just have to keep trying to make coffee and eventually I will become a professional barista. 

"Sometimes life is merely a matter of coffee and whatever intimacy a cup of coffee affords." 

— Richard Brautigan

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I guess this guy had had a little too much coffee, but the video is funny. Fortunately I am not as addicted to coffee as this young fellow.

First step forward

I have taken a step forward this month. I feel fresh, healthy and happy and a week ago or so, I got a job! My school was raising money for Malawi, a country in Africa, and so I decided to work at a bakery in town. Apparently they were so pleased with me that they decided to hire me. I am so thrilled! I have been looking for a job for a long time now. Actually they said they were happy I had chosen them to work for. I have got a feeling that life will be a little easier now, but also a lot more difficult. I feel this is a step toward my independence, and soon I will have enough money to get my own place, to travel and to do what I want to.  

What comes next?

I will shine

Six months ago I felt really good about myself, but the last couple of months the shine has gradually faded. However I have decided to change this in order to get my glow back. I will focus more on how I look, and how I act around people. I want to be a fun and bubbly girl who fills the room with joy. I want this happy energy to fill my body so that I can enchant people with it. And hopefully they will want to get to know me, not just walk by without noticing me.

It's a brand new day
The sun is shinning
It's a brand new day
For the first time
In such a long long time
I know
I'll be ok

                                                                              - Brand new day by Joshua Radin

Pursue your dreams, if you have any

The last couple of weeks have been busy, or well at least I have not prioritized writing. I have been sick, but I guess that have been because I do not have willpower to do anything. I feel a little exhausted, not due to school, but of life. I wish I had any goals in life. Something more than just experiencing the world and have a family. I want something more out of my life, I want to be something special and something that really matters. Every day I feel more and more lost in this big world, and I realize I am just an ant in an anthill. We are all just workers. We work and work, only so that we can live, but the truth is that if we become too obsessed with working, we are not really living. 

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."

                                                                                              - Oscar Wilde

However, the fact that I feel the way I do, makes me only more stupid and even more like the rest of the world. What I want, and what I want out of life, is what probably most of the population of this world wants too. I think to myself that I am the only one to feel like this, but in reality there are so many others who think like that too. Just like when I think I have a great problem or something horrible happens to me, I think to myself that I am the only one to experience that and I feel so alone, but when I think about it, I am quite sure there is someone out there who is going through the same. Probably something even worse. My thoughts are selfish.

I wish I had an answer of what I want out of life. What is my goal, what is my point of living? Do I want to follow the status quo and end up like every other family, working from 9 to 5 at a company I do not really like? I do not know, and I wish I did. Everybody needs a dream to pursue.

Hope for the future

A second, a minute, time passes without us paying attention to it. We do not feel the change from one year to another, but the truth is that every day is a new step toward the unknown, and one day less with the freedom of being young.

We fill our minds with what the future will bring, but never forget what the past has brought. Memories are the most cherished privileges in life, at least mine. A person who cannot remember, is a very lost person.

                                                                                          

"Living is like tearing through a museum. Not until later do you really start absorbing what you saw, thinking about it, looking it up in a book, and remembering - because you can't take it in all at once."

                                                                                                        -Audrey Hepburn

 I have grown up among friends and family, always someone to love, always someone who loves me. Through the years I have met new people, made new friends, but at the same time I have slowly slipped away from old friends. While getting to know all the new people, you give less time to your old friends.The ones I have grown up with are almost replaced with new friends, and I cannot help to think; Before I thought I would never slip away from my former friends and that happened. Now I sort of worry that will happen with my current friends. I guess it is just all up to me, whether I will let it happen or not.

However, what is the most important to me, is that even though some friends will come, and some will go, I hope I always will have the ones who are the most important to me around.