Let your fortress fall

"And you're slowly shaking finger tips

Show that you're scared like me so

Let's pretend we're alone

And I know you may be scared

And I know we're unprepared

But I don't care

Tell me, tell me

What makes you think that you are invincible?

I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure

Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable

Impossible"

-    Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade

Some people have the need to seem tougher or stronger than what they really are, and it must be so difficult and tiring. We are only human, and some times we just have to let people in and some feelings out. No one expects anyone to have everything under control all the time. It is only human to show your feelings now and then, and let someone who is close to you tear down the brick wall. 

This is an inspiring poem, but it says that nothing can take you down and under no circumstances, nothing will make you cry or feel for that sake. I think it is a bit heartless.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

by William Ernest Henley

Creativity is the keyword

Unfortunately I am back in a quite dull period again. After I got home from Barcelona, life has continued in the most boring way. I do not seem to appreciate events and nice moments. My life is just very normal and there is not much happening, even though I am not sure of what I am hoping to happen.

Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You're going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process.

                                                                                           - Anthony Robbins

Maybe I just want to meet new people and make new friends. At the time, partying is the highlight in my life, probably because that is the only fun thing I have access to at the moment opposed to travelling. Maybe I just miss the summer. Sunny days at the beach with all my friends, chill and fun.

I guess the solution for me is to be more creative and active. Come up with things to do, get-togethers and trips.

 "Creativity is intelligence having fun." 
                                                                                                  - Albert Einstein

Barca Baby!!

Okay, so tomorrow I am going to Barcelona with my bestest friend and I honestly cannot wait! I have never been to Spain before, and I am so excited to hear everybody speaking Spanish all the time. I had hoped I would be able to communicate a little in Spanish by now, but unfortunately I have no clue of what to say. 

There are so many bright sides to this trip. First of all I cannot wait to spend a whole week alone with my friend. I know it might sound weird, but even though I see her several times a week, I do not feel like it is enough. When we became friends we hung out all the time, every day, all day long. Now we do not hang out as much as before, but we are just as good friends. However, I sort of miss that time when I saw her every day, and this week it will be only me and her. Hahah, it sounds like I am in love with her or something, but I am not, she is just my closest friend. 

Second is that there is no one else in the world that I would rather 

explore the world with, and now we are going to this exciting country. 

Our goal, I think, is to explore many new places and things, and really 

get the feeling of the Spanish culture. We are expecting to taste a lot 

of new food, meet new people and really just live our lives. 

Third is that we are going alone, without any parents, which is kind 

of frightening, but we will stay at her uncle's place. He and his friend 

sound really cool, and I think they will take care of us. Still it is quite 

exciting that we are old enough to finally go travelling alone.

Forth is all the shops we will visit, and all the shopping. We have specifically planned to visit Starbucks, Hard Rock Café, Nagano sushi, somewhere to eat paella, kebab, the Picasso museum, the Gaudi park, Sagrada familia church and a lot more. Also we will shop till we drop, or until we do not have any money left. I will 

bring 500 euros and I hope I can afford a lot with it. 

COFFEE

Today I had a coffee course at work, and it was both interesting and frightening. There are just so many different details to remember, and I was told that if I forgot a small detail, it would ruin the whole coffee. Therefore I was quite stressed when it was my turn to try it out, but luckily it was not a disaster. From now on I just have to keep trying to make coffee and eventually I will become a professional barista. 

"Sometimes life is merely a matter of coffee and whatever intimacy a cup of coffee affords." 

— Richard Brautigan

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I guess this guy had had a little too much coffee, but the video is funny. Fortunately I am not as addicted to coffee as this young fellow.