Insight

I had had a little too much to drink, it led to a major melt down. I cannot remember last time I cried like that. In a way it brought with it something positive like showing me who is really there for me when I need it the most. I appreciate it. Those feelings had been kept in for quite a while, it really was a relief to feel that empty. 

I am not sure of what I might have shared that night, it bothers me in a way, it is just all so confusing. The bottom point, however, is that I really do not feel safe. It feels like I am on my own, it does not have to be a bad thing. I am independent and live my life as I like. It may be time to grow up and act like an adult for now. 

Actually I changed my style into something more sophisticated and it feels good, we will just have to see how long it lasts. I do not want to be the old me anymore.