There is no love like the first

"The first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever, and no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away."

                                                                                                              - Nicholas Sparks

My first love is a good memory, and I love to look back at it. There was no fighting, just happiness and love. I am so sincerely happy he was my first love, and I will carry the feeling of being loved like that for the rest of my life. 

Now and then I realize how stupid it was of me to let go of him. How can I get anyone better than him? Or at least anything close to how great he was. Is. Sometimes I think I should not have pushed him away, that I should have endured it and tried to solve it. I blame it on that I was young and did not know what I wanted. Maybe I was insecure, but mostly I pushed him away because that is what I do. Like I said in that earlier post. But if we are meant to be, then maybe we will be united someday.

"One of the hardest parts of life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder."