" 'Cause I don't belong to anyone, and nobody belongs to me "
- Perfectly lonely by John Mayer
I do not know what I can do to change that, because I would like it to change. I would like to love someone, and to be loved back. I feel like I am just only me. Always. I feel like I am alone, I have good friends, but I do not have a best friend who thinks of me as the best friend as well. That is gone now. I miss feeling special and like the only one you desire to be with. emostupidshitass.
Som ringane i vatnet blir du større
Som en tumor i ditt hjerta blir du verre
Store spørsmål som kem har du vært, kem ska du bli
Eg gir deg ingenting aent enn mi tid
Ka skal du sei når du står framfor vårherre?
Nå er det din tur dessverre
- Tumor i ditt hjerta by Kaizers Orchestra
My London visit was a total success, the weather was good, my friends were nice and the things to do were countless. I think we got to do almost all the stuff we planned, but there were so much more to do!
The Kooks concert was the highlight of the trip, they exceeded our expectations. I was standing on the front row by the fence, making eye-contact with Luke, I know he sang to me all the time. The sad part is that it is all over now, so quickly. We have been so excited for this event for such a long time, and suddenly it is over. Just like that. I think I have to make new plans to keep me motivated. Or else the days will be too boring.
Tomorrow. London. Five days. Concert. Or well the last one I am not so sure about any more. Sadly we were told the vocalist in The Kooks is sick, which means the gig might be cancelled. Not the luckiest kid in the world, no. Anyhow, the trip will be great, gig or not. We are free.
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| Taj Mahal, India |
I have got a new life mission, I have to visit the Taj Mahal within two-five years, because I read that it will collapse! I cannot live without seeing the Taj Mahal before it crashes. Also I have to go to California within maybe seven years, because I heard it will be crushed by an earthquake or something. The Maldives are also on my list, beautiful and peaceful.
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| Surfing in California |
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| The Maldives |
I noticed the moon was in the sky today, almost a full moon. It makes me feel calm when it is there, I do not know why the moon makes such an impression on me, I love it.
It sucks and it is awkward, people are actually reading this shit, which limits the honesty in my posts. I would love to write about what ever was on my mind, like I used to, but now I feel like I cannot utter my inner-closest feelings. However, in a way I still do, I guess the last post was a bit over. Well, appreciate the honesty you get.
Few things feel as good as sleeping naked. The pure, natural comfort, and the sheets will warm up faster. The only thing that is concerning is if something would happen, which would lead to a frantic hurry toward the dresser. The same goes for walking naked around the house, but it just gives you a certain pleasure. You learn to be comfortable with your body, which is important.
"The naked truth is
always better than the
best-dressed lie."
