The power of love

How great the power of hugs and kisses are. It simply symbolizes your love and care toward a person, without words. One hug, one kiss and words do not matter. 

Christmas is almost over, and a great deal of hugs have been received and given. How grateful I am to have spent this wonderful holiday with all the people I love. It is a holiday of happiness and kindness, no matter where you are, most people are smiling and are being helpful. This holiday makes me think of all the things I am grateful for, and I am sure that is something that passes most people's mind. The year has brought me both happiness and sorrows. This is significant because otherwise we would not know when a good thing happens, if we do not experience something bad. Therefore I have learned something from both, which I am grateful for. That is what makes me the person I am, and where I am today. 

   "I AM WHAT LIFE MADE ME"

Today is New Years Eve and I am really looking forward to the upcoming year. I know I will learn and experience more, and get on with my life. Do something new, get the chance to experience something out of the ordinary. Happy New Year!!

"I hope you will have a wonderful year, that you'll dream dangerously and outrageously, that you'll make something that didn't exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind."

                                                                                                                                - Neil Gaiman

New friends and new places to see

My biggest dream is to travel and experience the world. Move to different continents, and really understand what is going on outside my peaceful little bubble. Earlier today I was watching Miami Ink, and Ami thought that people can learn a great deal more by experiencing countries, than going to school and study for eight years. I think he is absolutely right, and I would love the opportunity to travel as soon as possible. However, I have been trying to convince my parents to letting me move to the US for one year to study, but they are really stubborn. 

Life is kind of short, and I want to live my life and follow my dreams, what else are we supposed to do with life? I am probably going to end up like everyone else; married, kids, house and go on vacations now and then, but still, I want to do everything I can in my life while I have got the time and freedom. I do not see any reason to maintain where I am for three more years, it will be a waste of time. Also it does not really matter where I am in the world, I will always come back and we are all under the same sky, under the same moon.

"It doesn't matter where it is in the sky or where you are in the world,the moon is never bigger than your thumb."

                                                              from Dear John

  Lately I have been almost obsessed with the moon, Venus and Jupiter. I am not entirely sure it was Jupiter I saw early in November, but from November and until now I have seen a very bright star next to the moon. This star is not a start, though, it is the planet Venus. For a while now, I have been completely mesmerized by the moon because it is so bright and enlightens the night. And suddenly I noticed a bright shining star next to it. The two of them together is maybe something of the most beautiful I have ever seen. Especially at dawn. The moon makes me feel safe, like I said, it enlightens the night and shows me the way. Some nights the moon is gone, and suddenly I feel very alone, but when it is up in the sky, all shiny and bright, I instantly feel calm. Safe.

"So tell 'em all I'm on my way
New friends and new places to see
And to sleep under the stars
Who could ask for more
With the moon keeping watch over me"

                                                                                                    On my way by Phil Collins

Shake up the happiness

Christmas is approaching in full speed, I just started my Christmas Holidays. The houses are warm and snug, and outside it is snowing thick layers of white, perfect crystals. The cities are transformed into winter wonderlands with Christmas lights and Christmas decorations, and the Christmas Carols are rocking the radios. 

These Christmas days we do everything we can to lure out the Christmas spirit. We decorate with tiny Santa Claus figures, lights in the windows, especially stars, and we bake cookies and decorate the Christmas tree while listening to Christmas Carols. One of my favorite Christmas Carols is "Shake up the happiness" by Train. The song is so incredibly happy and it is also the new Coca Cola song, which makes it even better because the Coca Cola songs and commercials are the best.

I am only human

I keep my emotions to myself. If there is something I want someone to know, I try to tell them, but still, there are so many feelings I just do not bother to tell. I ask myself why, and maybe I think they are not worth telling, or that I should not complain. Or maybe I just want to seem stronger than what I am and maybe I just do not want their pity. Of course I am not the only one who want to seem stronger, and also I know I am not the only one to feel how I feel.

 In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

                                                                            -Invictus by William Ernest Henley

Everybody has their dark days when they only think about something sad or feeling sorry for them self. I have those days sometimes. I do not feel like doing anything except being alone, listening to music and thinking about it. I look for reasons to why it happened, how I reacted, how I should have reacted and what comes next. 
  

"Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in theirs."

I tend to push people away sometimes. It usually happens if I open up to a person and show or tell how I feel or how much I care for that person. After declaring my feelings, one would wish to get the same reaction back. Well, if the other person does not show as much affection as I do, I instantly crawl back into my shell. It is like saying "okay, as you like" and have them to fight for you to get you back, as if anyone would do that. It is like sitting on a chair at prom, hoping someone will drag you out from your gloomy mood and ask you to dance. Those incidents rarely happen, and it is a waste of time to hope they will. However, what keeps us going is love, and sometimes we just need to hear from someone that they love us back. There is nothing wrong in that.

Referring to the quote, I warn everybody not to push people too far away. Maybe they need a second chance because you are not guaranteed to get them back. If you really love the person and care for him or her, it is not worth taking the risk. Once you push them away, you might not ever get them back.

Speaking vs. listening

I would say my thoughts have been rather absent lately. No worries have been occupying me, except schoolwork and studying for my test. It has been quite relaxing actually. I have been with my friends, some "new", and some "old" who I try not to lose touch with. I hope the following days will be like the last week. 

I also hope that the blogging will help me though, to make me want to think more. I find everything uninteresting, and I simply do not care about anything and I do not bother to think. Although it is easier not to think and worry, I feel like the meaning of life, to become wiser and to experience life, is increasing. I want to get my voice back, to have a say in what people are discussing, and not just listen.

"knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens"

                                                                                -Jimi Hendrix

I am not contradicting myself, I just have to participate in conversations more, and to share my opinions with others. I am not sure why, maybe to let people know I am a bright girl with thoughts of my own. I need something to contribute with, as to thinking I am nothing special. 

The difference between listening and speaking is that when you listen to what people say, you hear only their opinion. You do not start debating with yourself whether it is right or wrong, or why it is so, while listening. When you are talking, you have to assemble all your thoughts and opinions, and really think it through, which is what I want to achieve. To find my thoughts, gather them and make them significant. I am so tired of feeling so small amongst everyone, I need to stick out from the crowd.

I believe it is important to get used to use your voice, and tell people what you think. However, I am more of a listener, whether I want to or not.That is my best quality I believe, the ability to listen to my friends' problems and being a good friend.

"We have two ears and one mouth so we may listen more and talk the less"

                                                                                                                     -Epictetus

My very first post

Well this is the first post in my new blog. Here I will write down all my thoughts, preoccupations, feelings and all that pops into my mind. I am quite sure I will add new posts approximately once a week, more or less. Hopefully, later on, my English will be improved.