Speaking vs. listening

I would say my thoughts have been rather absent lately. No worries have been occupying me, except schoolwork and studying for my test. It has been quite relaxing actually. I have been with my friends, some "new", and some "old" who I try not to lose touch with. I hope the following days will be like the last week. 

I also hope that the blogging will help me though, to make me want to think more. I find everything uninteresting, and I simply do not care about anything and I do not bother to think. Although it is easier not to think and worry, I feel like the meaning of life, to become wiser and to experience life, is increasing. I want to get my voice back, to have a say in what people are discussing, and not just listen.

"knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens"

                                                                                -Jimi Hendrix

I am not contradicting myself, I just have to participate in conversations more, and to share my opinions with others. I am not sure why, maybe to let people know I am a bright girl with thoughts of my own. I need something to contribute with, as to thinking I am nothing special. 

The difference between listening and speaking is that when you listen to what people say, you hear only their opinion. You do not start debating with yourself whether it is right or wrong, or why it is so, while listening. When you are talking, you have to assemble all your thoughts and opinions, and really think it through, which is what I want to achieve. To find my thoughts, gather them and make them significant. I am so tired of feeling so small amongst everyone, I need to stick out from the crowd.

I believe it is important to get used to use your voice, and tell people what you think. However, I am more of a listener, whether I want to or not.That is my best quality I believe, the ability to listen to my friends' problems and being a good friend.

"We have two ears and one mouth so we may listen more and talk the less"

                                                                                                                     -Epictetus