Why do I even care?

                                         "People want you to be happy.

                                      Don't keep serving them your pain!

                                         If you could untie your wings

                                        and free your soul of jealousy,

                                         you and everyone around you

                                            would fly up like doves."

                                                                                       -Rumi

Why was I full of expectations, and why did I get disappointed? It should not have meant anything to me, I do not know why it does. If I was a friend of mine, I would just say forget about it and do not think about it. I just cannot control it, I do think about it. And what difference would it make if he did want me?

Get over it.

Snow on the roof

Is it wrong to be kissing random people at parties? Say it is just kissing or making out, and it does not go any further, is it a bad idea? I think to me it does not really matter because I am young, and I do not want to set any strict limits to myself. I know when it is going too far, but making out? I ask this because I have friends and, well other people that think it is wrong, so is it really? I guess I have already given my opinion, but is it slutty to make out with different people at different parties, or is it just the youth having fun? All I think I have left to say is that if you want to do it and think it is fun, then do it. Snow on the roof.



I mean, what are the advantages of being single, well you can do the stuff you cannot do when you are in a relationship. That is why many people enjoy being single. 


I guess I will just do what suits me, and live my life. The others can live their careful, boring lives.

And by the way, this blog sucks

I want someone I think is special to make me feel special

Why is it that it always has to be the wrong guys that like me? Why is it that I cannot like them back, and have to turn them down. Suddenly everything is awkward and different. Fucked up. I hope next time the feelings will be mutual, preferably both will find each other special.

I don't think you've ever needed anything

So I was told today that I do not need anything in that meaning that I do not need anyone. Is this the impression people have of me? That I think I am better off alone? This came from a friend who used to like me. When we hung out and I was struggling with something, I always told him I could do it. I did not need his help, but that is what people want to do for each other right? Help. I guess I make the impression that I think I can do everything myself, but the truth is that everybody need some help sometimes. And certainly everybody needs somebody. 

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see

Painted faces fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody

You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you and all you know and how you speak

Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody

You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you

                                                                             -Use somebody by Kings of Leon

I was also told that girls tend to over think stuff.